ECLIPSE

An eclipse is a rare experience. When do you ever hear that the sun or moon have crossed each other’s paths? It is such a beautiful site. Be it a lunar or solar eclipse….and for just a few minutes, there is either a shadow or complete darkness and soon the experience is over. Though it’s funny how, when u look at the sun with your bare eyes on a normal day, you don’t get any effect but during an eclipse, your eyes actually do hurt and you have to wear the protective UV glasses. Coming to think about it…where do guys store them? Hmmmm

In reality, we do experiences eclipses; the point in life where one is stuck in a dark situation and is struggling to find their way out. We tend to fight ourselves till the path ways are finally clear. The sad bit is by the time we are finding the way out…we are damaged. Just like looking at the sun during an eclipse…..it stings, is painful and to some can actually leave you blind. One tends to cry their heart out, fight themselves, others enter depression, while others fight with denial.

Though others have the protective film all over themselves and they are able to glide through the situation because they know how to handle it. Fighting their way out though sing the right techniques. Then we tend to wonder: How the hell did you pull though it? I believe it’s the mentality of once bitten twice shy….

At the end of the day, it is just a passing trial. Which are to make s stronger, smarter and careful. We aren’t super heroes….that is for sure but we can overcome the 15 minutes of darkness and take it to be an experience that we will never forget because in reality we all experience different situations that still have the same note if not effect; right?

Gravity

Something always brings me back to u,

And never takes too long,

No matter what i say or do,

I still feel u to the moment am gone!

 You hold me without touch,

And keep me without chains!

I never wanted anything so much,

Than to drown in ur love n not feel ur reign!

Set me free,

Let me be,

I don wanna fall anada moment into ur gravity.

Here i am,

And i stand so tall,

Just the way am supposed to be but,

Ur on to me,

n all over me!

You loved me coz am fragile,

And i thought i was strong,

But you touch me 4 a lil while,

And all ma fragile strength is gone!

Set me free,

Let me be,

I don wanna fall anada moment into your gravity.

Here i am,

And i stand so tall,

Just the way am supposed to be but,

Ur on to me,

N all over me!

I leave hia on ma knees,

As i try to make you see that,

Everything you think i need,

Here on the ground,

But you're neither friend or foe,

Though i can't seem to let you go,

But one thing i still know is,

You're keeping me down! 

You're keeping me down!

Yeah!

You're on to me,

And all over.

Something always brings me back to you

It never takes too long!!!!!!

Have u ever felt this way? When the "GRAVITY" pulls you down n it just controls u??

When u can’t fight it n u just want give in?

What do u do next?

A Cry

A cry for help,
A cry of sadness
A cry of sorrow
A cry of a lonely heart
A cry of not having what we want
A cry of hopelessness
A cry 4 love
A cry of pain

A child raised with morals n values,
A child brought into a world of love
But has to fight the cruel world all alone
With all the negativity, judgment and neglecting
With time, as a human you eventually adapt to your surroundings.

Left alone,

Feeling helpless,
Alone,
Scared
And all alone
But with the love around, it’s not strong enough.

Fighting and making your own stand to be a force to reckon with was all that the child could do.
Fit in with the others, camouflage and blend in
Wrong crowd but bears a life changing experience that leaves child weak though strengthen through the inner child.

But wait?

Is it too late for family intervention?
Child is already lost to the world of lies, deceit, pain and insecurity.

No! No! Leave me alone! You’re hurting me but no one comes to her rescue

Scarred for life.
Ashamed
Hurt and in pain.
Psychological trauma? Maybe

Child wonders deep into the world
Experimental
But doesn’t fill what was lost
One little mistake and child discovers, she’s alone and nowhere to run to but home
In pain,
In tears
In anger
“Why me?”
Child learns the hard way and cant change the person they are

Do things get better?

Witness a life threatening situation
Witness many troopers fall along the way
Witness oneself in the grave

“Where am I?” “Someone please help”

I’ve come to realize that in life, so much goes on, the stories we hear about other people are at times scary and yet we still judge them and at times make fun of them.
Question is 10 years down the line what if this happens to your child?
Or life experiences are like a footpath where we wipe off the footprints and scenarios we wouldn’t want others to experience?
Question is will you be there to listen or judge
Be the tissue and shoulder needed?

SPEECHLESS!!!!!!!!!!!

Is ur punchline just a joke?
Il neva talk again,
Oh boy uv left me speechless,
Uv left me spechless,
So speechless.
N il neva love again,
Oh boy u left me speechless
Uv left me speechless,
So speechless

I cant blv hw u slured at me,
With ur half wide broken jaw
U popped my hearties
Ol dried up bubbled dreams!!!!
I no its complicated!!!

And after all the drinks and bars wiv bin 2,
Would u give it all up,
Could u give it al up 4 u
if i promised to you
And after the boys and girls wiv bin thru
Would u give it all up,
Could u u give it all up,
If i promised boy to you..........



Thats hw we feel wen we loose a loved one,argue with a loved one in life!!!the above words r lyrics inspired by Lady Gaga wen ha father was in hospital battlin ut cancer and left me wondering,wat would happen next?
What do we do wen we luz a lvd one?
Fight with a loved one?
The number of things we say to them o wish we neva had said to them,
The number of things we wish we said o did with them?
Alot of things have happended in my life and some have pulled me down,destroyed me,get closer to people but at the end of hte wat happens next?
I no we have all lost loved ones and we always ask ourselves y did they have to go and at tyms y not us awaselves?
There some situations wea we feel like we no longer wan b on this earth,cacoon ourselves in our own pods and just segregate ourselves 4rm everyone else!!!
What happens wen ur all alon n have no wea to go to?
Wen the one pason u trusted is no longer there?
Wen the pason u thot was ur life kills u n takes away ur reason to live?
When u don undastand y al dis is happenin to u n jus wana run?

Thinkk of it this way
A trial in life that strengthens u,
Mkes u stronger and builds u!!!

I dedicate this to all the loved ones wiv lost thru this lifetym and neva understood y it happend!!!!

CAN WE PLEASE HAVE A MOMENT OF SILENT..........


MWAH!!

As day comes,
And night falls,
for the rest of our life,
Life must go on.
Tho I stil mourn y u had  to go!!!

MAY THEIR SOULS REST IN PEACE

Marilyn Monroe

No matter how much we deny it, we all have a lil/ mini Marilyn Monroe in us all.

The general perception I have seen and heard about Ms. Norma Jeanne Mortenson, is basically a sex symbol. Yes, she had crazy mad sex appeal and all but at the end of the day, she left a story and legacy behind. I didn't know much about her deeply till I watched a movie based on her and read about her.

We ladies have our days where we feel sexy and just want to spoil ourselves. Others think that they are sexy and try to pull it off while others believe they are sexy and you can tell from the way they talk, walk, dress and at times from something as simple as a glance or smile. And I mean SEXY please don't confuse it with TRASHY/SLUTY or just plain DESPERATE. Nah that ain what I’m referring to. From talking to some people, I realized that most women make themselves feel sexy from materialistic things. Like lingerie, clothes, shoes, make-up, certain piercings and the list could go on. I ain condemn it or anything coz once in awhile I do fall victim to that. Others go to the extent of even changing their names to Monroe... (Please mark I ain hating on anyone). The general stereotype of Monroe is a sexual blonde bombshell; cleavage, short naughty outfits and one who tempts many men. True or false?

Other than living life on the fast lane, Norma battled several demons. From a tender age, she had to grow up with different fathers, moved from one foster home to another and having a mother who was a drunk. Left alone in this world when her mother passed away and had no idea on what to do. Life comes easy to most of us and some of us struggle just like Monroe to make it. It ain easy but we gatta do what we gatta do to get there; not knowing which way to take or which path to follow. She made life seem to be sooo easy and simple; little did some people know that she was battling a drug addiction that she picked from one of her marriages. We all fight with our own demons daily. From stress in our relationships to family issues, substance addictions, religious uncertainty, self realization, financial challenges. 

One thing that I have seen about Marilyn, she was no quitter. She struggled till she made it.

At a young age, she escaped the tormenting horror of rape and gave herself motivation to be the legend that she is today. Been true to herself made her get to the top n get the opportunity to be on the lips of many and even get the chance to sing for one of the American presidents. Despite going through several divorces, she knew what she wanted in life and where she wanted to be.

At times we wake up each morning and just like Monroe, place a mask and tell ourselves that everything is ok and the world daen have to know what we are going through.

Think about it...

Don't you agree that in one way or another you do have a lil Monroe attributes in you?

And don't forget; you don't have to be a blonde, skinny or even use materialistic things to make yourself fell sexy. 

YOU ARE SEXY JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.

Listen to this track... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDl7wtHl1XE

 My source of inspiration.

COOKIE DAY :)

Today was an awesome day. Had the day to myself, did my nails, had pizza for lunch, made dinner that actually took less than 40 mins to prep n cook (talk about amazing) then oh yeah...i baked.


Most of the people who know me, know me to bake when I'm pissed off a stress reliever (to be honest, today I actually used that to calm down few things that I have going on in my life that are getting to me), while others want me to start a business from my baking. And of course i have fans who always want me to bake for them just for the sake and others want a lesson.

So i decided i could share some of my tips on baking once in awhile....when i bake that is....

I went for the normal cliche shortbread cookie. They are the simplest cookies to make though i hate the part where my nails get messed up but amazing thing is within half an hour...they were ready n i had finished prepping my dinner ingredients n clearing up the dishes...

When it comes to baking, I always love trying something new...like this time i cut them out into certain THICK shapes n coated them with chocolate...it was the most heavenliest snack ever...Another annoying thing i hate about baking is the fact that you have to convert measurements and try and figure out how much something is equivalent to (i was to lazy to use my add-on....no excuse at all) then u have to figure out the right temperature to use because for me i have issues with following recipes then the product comes out burnt...tsk tsk tsk....anyway another thing I forgot to mention about this cookies is that they don't have EGGS or MILK...I have friends who are lactose intolerant or react to protein...(I'm on a mission on formulating ingredients to cater to such people in our country because I think that their needs are ignored....)

So to make my fab cookies this is all you need....

1 cup of butter/margarine (which ever is available or that you prefer)
1/2 cup of sugar
2cups of flour 1sp vanilla essence

Pre heat oven at 160 and prepare your baking sheet
Mix in the butter, sugar and essence till they become fluffy
Add the flour bit by bit
Place on the baking sheet (can either be cut out shapes) and separate slightly by scoring with a knife. Ensure to prick the top with a fork.
Bake for 30 mins or till golden
Let them cook before decorating.

With this basic ingredients you can spice it up with like a different essence for different tastes or even add a dash of coffee or coconut for texture.
For decoration, I prefer coating them with chocolate and edible silver balls.
Good thing about this recipe, the young ones can even join when you make it or even do it themselves...

And there you have cookies for a simple snack or even for tea or you could wrap them up and pack them as a gift for a friend :)

Happy Baking

LOST...

When I started writing this, my inspiration actually came from Emeli Sande's song; Clown. I was in a certain zone where I actually felt like my friends used me and would toy me around like a clown and it took me back to my younger years when people used to pick on me for been skinny and been raised by a single mum. I used to be singled out for such little things.For me to fit in, I used to give in to sooo much till I realised I don't have to do what people want me to do because as different as I may be, I was unique in my own way.

In life, have you experienced such feelings where you feel like you don't belong or made to feel like you don't belong? Even despite having such issues in the outside world...I realised that even at home  i didn't have a sense of belonging. Do you know anyone who has or is exepriencing such issues?

Kindly share on this post by commenting. This is the first post where i have actually asked for feedback. Feel free to write whatever you feel like...you never know we could be helping someone who may stumble across this post and it may help them...

MY CHAMOMILE

My mummy always used to tell me of how Chamomile tea is used to relax the nerves and to some extent make one forget about what they were going through; soothing tea is what I called it.

I used to come up with various concoctions and try out different brands to find my perfect blend.

My first brand was rather too light. At least it broke my tea experimenting virginity . It was too unsettling for me. And my taste buds wanted more than just the simple taste that it was offered. So we moved onto the next brand.

My #2 was a shocker. It was TOO STRONG.

Too dark

 Too bitter

 Was def worse than having really strong cold coffee in the morning

Was too disgusting

At this point I wanted to give up because I had no clue on what to expect and I’d given up. I was better off trying my own ways of soothing myself.

Take 3

Was almost the perfect blend but something was amiss…and I just couldn’t figure out what it was

Till brand 4 came along.

It was perfect!

Had the exact amount of chamomile and herbs.

Perfect amount of dried tea leaves

Perfect sugar content

Perfect packaging; with no leaks or weary bags

IT WAS MY HEAVEN.

Just to hear the factory shut down n I could no longer get my CHAMOMILE. I was definitely upset…beyond UPSET I had just found my happy place

The one place I would go to and forget about everything

The one thing that made me warm all the way deep inside to the lowest darkest bit of my tiny muscles

My lips would tingle each time I was approaching for a sip…

The heat

The connection

The hidden secrets

The unveiled aroma…

It made me feel comforted

Relaxed and inspired to tackle whatever battle would come my way the next day

So natural

soo true...

All that gone within the twinkle of an eye…

It could not be true after all that searching, I found the perfect CHAMOMILE and lost it…not even tears could express my emotions…