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A few days ago, I celebrated my 2....something birthday. Was excited I was starting a new year at the end of the "actual" year. Fun times is the description I can give you guys of what I have undergone the past few years. I later sat down this week and took a different angle for this article....

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or those around me, I'm considered to be a HAPPY character. I seem to be a source of positive energy to some people while others tend to get the HORMONAL HURRICANE side when they tamper with the wrong wires and temper with my anger. Over the years, I have come to realize, despite the fact that I dish out the truth when necessary, I HATE been on the receiving end. It drains me because just as most humans react, we don't like been on the wrong but such is life. Gatta swallow the bitter pill once in awhile.
At times I question myself what I lack and just today morning I realized, I am been unjust to myself as my HUNGER for my own success isn't on the level that it should be on. I always challenge myself to be better than I was the previous day, but today I had a rude awakening that made me realize, I have to get the old me back.
Looking back over the years, I was a HEARTBREAKER... little did I remember of how karma can come back and bite me and I would be the one with a broken heart. Some people are embarrassed to say this out in public, but I no longer have shame when I say at some point in my life I not only had HAZARDOUS friends but I was a Hazard to myself. I was in the darkest zone in my life that now I sit and question myself; "why the hell was I letting someone have the better part of me?" Listening to Marvin's Room....story for another day...

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NGEL is a nickname I got  exactly 10 years ago. At first I used to hate it but it actually grew onto me during the years and I have my first boyfriend to thank him for the name...Over the years I have always been an 'ADVENTITIOUS and AFFABLE soul' is what some say I am.
AGELESS is something I don't have to say but it shows with my physique (just saying).My thought process is what confuses people at times because they tend to ask how old I am due to my face and thinking process differ completely from one another. My Twinnie always says I am AMBIVALENT when it comes to impulsive decision making. But shockingly what amazes me about what people comment about me is, I come off as an ADVISOR when need arises.

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he IRONIC part that I love about my life, is the levels of expectations that I blow out of the water once I get my mind hooked onto achieving something. I do have my low moments when "super gal" is nowhere to be seen and I just want to zone-out into my own "Keke Land". I tend to be believe I am a different being; UNIQUE is the word. Not too much though. Other than been told I resemble other people (which I find totally AWKWARD), I tend to leave a mark in people's life...97% is a good mark. Get on my wrong side to join the 3% wagon. Looking back, at some point in my rebellious teen life, I was clustered to be rowdy and yet I was never RECALCITRANT whatsoever.

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ANY is just but one of the words I can truly describe myself with...hands down. I do have my ZESTY moments here and there but they are toned down at times; ( and not the sour aspect :-) )
If I was to die today, I would so like to be a Tiger in the ZOIC world. They are powerful, the true kings of the jungle (YES lions are nothing in this comparison) and sooooo adorable when they are cubs. It's totally random but I would do anything to see a real tiger and maybe even pet it. I have a fetish for Pandas and Koalas. Those fuzzy things drive me mad. Too adorable.

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 am not a perfectionist; neither am I a KLUTZY person but I do have those moments and they come with a huge BANG!!! I hate the factor that some people have the notion that I am KINKY due to the presence of a piercing I have. It's amazing how some Kenyans are soooo shallow and narrow thinkers. Just because someone has certain adornments doesn't mean that they got them just like every other person. All my adornments have symbolic meanings to me. (Just for the record).
I tend to be super KIND at times that people take advantage of me and in return I end up been a silent vicious though meek innocent KILLER. At times it is toxic for my friendship relations but I believe once in a while one goes to a darker area to learn their strongest and weakest points.

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enturing into ENTREPRENEURSHIP is one of my goals for this year. I have decided to use my talent to not only generate income but also to give back to society. I am super excited about my adoption. Can't wait to be a mommy. Some people have told me so far I am crazy but what's crazy about taking care of something that is so helpless? Can't wait to meet my baby ELEPHANT in the next few weeks time. They always take my breath away and to think that in the next 10 years they could go extinct and I can help stop that, I'd definitely have a helping hand to help save them.

That's just a little piece about me. For those who are keen, you can pick out my real names and age from this article and other hidden attributes that are not necessarily written in the article. I hope you enjoyed getting to know just a little about the AUTHOR.

What's The True Definition Of Professional Success?

We all have the potential to be at our MAXIMUM best.
We always complain that the money we earn, isn't enough.
We complain that the jobs  we are in aren't what fulfilling.
So why do you bother to wake up in the morning to go to work?

Most will give the EXCUSE that they are in the position they are in due to:
The economy;
Providing basic needs;
Or better yet, they don't have a choice.

There're  some people I look at on a daily basis and wonder;
"What did you really envision about YOUR FUTURE?"
I've watched people go through pay cuts.
I've watched people demote themselves.
I've watched people shrivel up in their seats due to lack of challenge and growth
And I end up asking myself:
"Why the hell do they even bother waking up in the morning?"

Dark clouds loom over them that you get depressed on their behalf.
To others, they may see them as a WASTE of time, resources and space.
That's why when the company undergoes retrenchment or firing process,
It's no shocker they are the first ones to see the door.
And just like humans natural default;
They talk bad about their former employers
Or better yet their jobs.

When will people ever wake up to reality and FACE it?
Take the risk of walking out of their hell hole in order to satisfy their professional purpose?
I am still green in this corporate world but I have learnt a lot from it.
I have watched people be politically played.
I have watched people breakdown because they hate their jobs.
And I sit and wonder to myself:
"Why?"

I too have fallen victim to this.
I used to love my job until some factor was placed into my space.
I could wake up in the morning and refuse to show up at work;
I could be present physically but not mentally engaged.
I could hurl in my mouth each time i looked at my created problem.
I imagined sooo many things at the back of my mind...
But what VALUE did it add into my life?
NOTHING!!!

I had to have my own self realization.
I didn't hate my job;
I hated the factor that was placed into my space.
I hated the imbalance that was caused.
But it was an eye opener.
I didn't want to be the person who I was becoming.
Neither did I want to be like the factor that was placed into my space;
DESPERATE.

I realized my passion was slowly been hindered by my growing hatred towards something that didn't even ADD value into my life.
I let the minor attribute of annoyance get to the best of me.
What a waste of time and energy it was.
SWOP OF ATTITUDE CHECKED IN.

I started doing what I love.
I focused on my strengths rather than letting my anger be my focal point.
I didn't notice the changes myself till those surrounding me started pin pointing my oozing POSITIVITY.

We all have the ability to build and destroy ourselves.
 No one gives a rat's ass about you when you hit rock bottom,
But they focus on your recovery.
We all know the potential we have to get to our best.
So what's holding you back from getting there?

The most general mistake I have seen most people do is measure their success by MATERIALISM.
Who said to be successful means having a 6 figure balance at the end of the month in your account?
Or by the type of car you drive?
House you live in?
True SUCCESS comes from SELF FULFILLMENT.
How many of you can attest to that?
Take it upon yourself as a challenge to measure your own SUCCESS.
Is it driven by your PASSION or by MATERIALISM CRAVE?

Hmmmmm?