LOST...

When I started writing this, my inspiration actually came from Emeli Sande's song; Clown. I was in a certain zone where I actually felt like my friends used me and would toy me around like a clown and it took me back to my younger years when people used to pick on me for been skinny and been raised by a single mum. I used to be singled out for such little things.For me to fit in, I used to give in to sooo much till I realised I don't have to do what people want me to do because as different as I may be, I was unique in my own way.

In life, have you experienced such feelings where you feel like you don't belong or made to feel like you don't belong? Even despite having such issues in the outside world...I realised that even at home  i didn't have a sense of belonging. Do you know anyone who has or is exepriencing such issues?

Kindly share on this post by commenting. This is the first post where i have actually asked for feedback. Feel free to write whatever you feel like...you never know we could be helping someone who may stumble across this post and it may help them...

MY CHAMOMILE

My mummy always used to tell me of how Chamomile tea is used to relax the nerves and to some extent make one forget about what they were going through; soothing tea is what I called it.

I used to come up with various concoctions and try out different brands to find my perfect blend.

My first brand was rather too light. At least it broke my tea experimenting virginity . It was too unsettling for me. And my taste buds wanted more than just the simple taste that it was offered. So we moved onto the next brand.

My #2 was a shocker. It was TOO STRONG.

Too dark

 Too bitter

 Was def worse than having really strong cold coffee in the morning

Was too disgusting

At this point I wanted to give up because I had no clue on what to expect and I’d given up. I was better off trying my own ways of soothing myself.

Take 3

Was almost the perfect blend but something was amiss…and I just couldn’t figure out what it was

Till brand 4 came along.

It was perfect!

Had the exact amount of chamomile and herbs.

Perfect amount of dried tea leaves

Perfect sugar content

Perfect packaging; with no leaks or weary bags

IT WAS MY HEAVEN.

Just to hear the factory shut down n I could no longer get my CHAMOMILE. I was definitely upset…beyond UPSET I had just found my happy place

The one place I would go to and forget about everything

The one thing that made me warm all the way deep inside to the lowest darkest bit of my tiny muscles

My lips would tingle each time I was approaching for a sip…

The heat

The connection

The hidden secrets

The unveiled aroma…

It made me feel comforted

Relaxed and inspired to tackle whatever battle would come my way the next day

So natural

soo true...

All that gone within the twinkle of an eye…

It could not be true after all that searching, I found the perfect CHAMOMILE and lost it…not even tears could express my emotions…

FASHION BITCH SLAP

The one thing that has hit our Kenyan fashion street these days is BRIGHT colors. You’ll get boys rocking all shades of bright colored pants, shoes, hair dos and others go the extra mile of accessories with amazing bright bow ties. I love it when a dude pulls the nerdy look with a hint of color. I find it a turn on. There are those men who prefer going the subtle direction and use bright colors to accessories their looks. You’ll find them wearing a bright colored shirt or African beaded chain…Then we have the special ones who are just sooo confused and you see them 20miles away looking like lost clowns left by the circus wagon. Dyed hair with a Mohawk cut, super bright stunners, screaming colored tee accompanied with multicolored pants or shorts and some ridiculous shoes…smh

And the gals’ ain even any better. Especially now with the whole retro feel coming back up, it’s getting kinda out of hand. You see gals looking all dolled up and everything! Mix and matching, co-coordinating colors and all then cute chilled out make up and finish up with the classic pin-up look; fire engine red lipstick and deep eye color. Honeys, yes you look amazing but for CRYING OUT LOUD…what’s with the SMOOCHING lip when taking photos??? Like really? Makes you look anorexic, others like fish while others look like they have boulders pushing their cheeks in…Do you guys really know how stupid you look? Some of you look really good while others….yeah….

When you’re trying to keep up with a trend, really don’t make yourself look stupid. You can easily look in check with fashion depending on how you blend your colors. For example if you are in a summery feel, wear something that has yellows, greens or orange. Like now what is out on the street is really rich under tone colors. They may be dark but can be made to stand out in their own way. Especially when you mix them with bright colors but having a neutral base is very important. I personally love color. One can tell from my nail polish collection to my shoes and various clothes collection that I have. 1 thing y’all need to remember is, when you decide to do bold…DO NOT OVER DO IT before you end up looking like a disastrous walking closet. When it comes to make-up…going nude at times is like the best option. It shows your natural self and features some parts of your face that really don’t need to be hidden. I’m into the pin-up love and God knows how I love looks that come out polished and perfect. The next time I see you with an insisting pin-up look, I swear I will tell you to YOUR FACE and not give a HOOT who you are….some looks honestly just disgust me….